The past month or so has been full of them.
1. Dropped my lifeless relationship.
2. Been working out a lot.
3. I’m surrounding myself with good books.
4. Just trying to be happy, regardless of life.
5. Keeping my head up high.
This^^ is the only reason i would consider getting a pug.
Holy mother of FUCK as if I’m only just learning this?!?!!?!?!
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I feel like everything’s a struggle lately, just to hold myself together. I yearn and ache for the past and familiar and yet I want something new and different. I feel so mixed up. I need something but I can’t seem to comprehend what that quite is. I’m homesick for my desert skies. I’d even settle with going back to turkey tech and the farm lands. Rationally I know neither would be ideal for me but emotionally I can’t seem to move away from it. I miss having my friends I knew I could lean on. I’m different than I was back then, tougher and rougher than I’ve ever been, but I think I’d rather be that wide eyed punk, than this cold, callus man. I don’t know what is up or down. It’s so confusing inside myself these days. I’m not who I planned on being when I was younger. I feel like I’m letting myself down, others down. What do I do?
